Last week, I discussed the beauty of mirroring within loving friendships and received so many kind words from a few of my own mirror friends. I felt seen and held, in such a vulnerable, yet soothing way. Y’all really know how to show up and show out! Thank you so much for choosing to walk alongside me in this life. It’s an honour.
Your warm sentiments led me down memory lane and I started reminiscing over our experiences together. I opened my old photo albums and journals, time-travelling back to those memories. It felt like I was watching myself unfold.
Laughing at my 16-year old self’s grievances about boys and marvelling at the career-focused thoughts of my 22-year old self. Reliving how I used to view the world, so curious as to whether or not, the words of my past selves still resonated with the values of who I am today.
Sometimes, my words acted as a reminder of immense personal growth, allowing me to celebrate how far I’ve come within certain relationships. Other times, they showed me how much some emotional challenges were still impacting me and that there was still a lot of healing to undergo.
The entry I want to share with you is an example of what it’s like to have your own words mirrored back to you, demonstrating how much wisdom you carry within.
"I am on a journey back to myself, where I am able to love myself fully, in order to believe that I am good enough. That I am worthy of abundance in love, wealth and life.
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Becoming the woman who I love [whether I’m] with others or on my own. Becoming the woman I already am. Everything I need is within me. Everything I can be is within me. All I need to do is rediscover the self I left behind, as I chased materialism and other people's dreams.
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The only dream I need to focus on is my own. The only life I need to live is mine. Therefore, I need to live well, by my standards and beliefs, so that when death comes for me, I will be ready. Not panicked. Not upset or filled with regret, but ready.
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It's not an easy route because it requires awareness and consciousness, in regard to every thought and action.
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But I will focus on one thought at a time. One action at a time. And one decision at a time, no matter how small it may be" (an excerpt from a 2019 journal entry).
I love how these words feel like I could’ve wrote them yesterday. I love how the past me wrote this down and left it as a gift for the present me. Now, here we are in the present, where I’m gifting these words to you.
You have so much wisdom within you. Take the time to listen to what makes your heart soar and who makes you feel energized.
You deserve to be loved fully and to love fully. You deserve to chase your dreams and build a life that you can be proud of. You deserve it. Point blank period.
At least, that’s what I believe for you. Can you say the same for yourself?
With love,
Kelisha
I liked this messaged related to an article l read some weeks ago l love these insights where we draw lessons and memories from the past to the present.